THE LOVER I DESPERATELY WANT BUT CANNOT HAVE
I’m sorry if I hurt you
I’m sorry if the mere thought of me sends shivers down your spine
The bare sound of my voice makes you cringe
Or makes you think of the echoes the last time our skins touched
I’m sorry I can’t give you what I want
I’m just scared of someone doing the same to me because my actions might actually hurt someone you love
Someone you care deeply about
Someone you fought hard to get and keep
Just to make that lasting commitment.
I am unaware of the obstacles you have encountered
The tough choices you’ve had to make
I can hear it in your voice
I can see it in your actions
I can feel it anytime we exchange words, thoughts or ideas
When you’re silent; when your eyes linger for two to three seconds
Just before you blink
That’s the best time to feel it
Your inordinate ability not to reveal so much that you’ve perfected to the tee.
I know it has made you a better person
I’ve told you sometimes
That’s exactly what I like about you.
The ability to balance it
Just the right amount of balance
You’re nice but dangerous
That’s what’s attracting me to you
That’s why I can’t stop thinking about you
You’re dangerous to my heart, U!
We’re too alike, I’ve told you before
We would end up hurting or annoying each other
We already are
It would never work
No matter how simple it might seem
My first mistake was the first time I smiled at you
My eyes were inviting
I know that’s my spark
I knew that would draw you to me
Wanting fuelled with earthly desires
But too scared of the consequences
How far can we go until one person gets hurt?
I hope I’m not the ONE