Why can’t I stop thinking about you?
Are you even thinking about me?
Slapping myself back to consciousness
Berating my soul for sharing it’s depth
I’m lost in the wind
Staring into the mist
Trying to find a way out
Feeling the pangs
Willing to hold on
Strength is all I seek
After all it’s all I’ve always known
You can’t force what’s not yours
No matter how much you try
How to kill the desire
To want what I know I can never have
What I shouldn’t have
That’s what hurts
Returning to my former self
Filled with anger for letting myself go
Knowing fully well I’m entering territories I’m not used to